La ViTa E BeLLa!

I think this one is my first major concert na na attendan for 2009...dream come true! twas just last year ng nabaliw ako kay David Cook. hehe.

Oh well.David Archuleta was sooo cute...

and David Cook was sooo Hottah hottah...(",)

in a sea of people...there is only you!

One thing that my Tita Fely taught me is to never sleep when I am still overwhelmed with so much emotion, like anger, sadness or happiness...According to her I should at least do something to divert what I'm feeling or i should pray etc...ewan ko. maybe because she believes na too much of anything is bad.Lalo na matutulog baka anu mangyari. haha.

Well, right now I am overwhelmed with so much happiness...surprised and super happy...So instead of going straight to bed,here I am visiting my site and I'm gonna blog what happened today kasi isa to sa di ko makakalimutan...hehe...syempre as my way na din of following my Tita's advice.hehe

(mahaba pala toh..di mo kailangan basahin pero kung love mo talaga ako...Go) haha

So it's Sunday, uhm 4 days after my birthday. I woke up early around 5:15am from a very short sleep kasi galing pa ako duty the other day (2pm-10pm shift). I went to work ng 6: 13 am. oh di ba late ng 3 minutes from the grace period.haha.anyway, i was at work from am till 3pm. Went home agad kasi finally after being lost for almost a month, makakapag service ako! yehey...

Pasok ko pa lang sa Center, super mega smile na ako seeing mga faces na namiss ko. Una si Jael, Grace and opkors sina Ate Alin and our baby Cyrus at marami pa...Hi Hello Kumustahan...then Service na...Ang ganda ng service. Nasa front kami at dahil medyo matagal akong nawala parang narealize ko na kailangan ko na pala talaga toh. Dami dapat pasalamatan kay God.And syempre Our Pastor Nixon, grabe walang kupas talaga. hanggang sa last part, natulala ako dahil may Harley Davidson na motorbike sa harapan namin. come on! hayy the best talaga lahat na ng way ginagawa niya maipaintindi lang ang message ni God.=) And yung worship ha...sobrang the best! =)

Then yun after the service,usap usap ulet while waiting na makumpleto kami for our usual after service dinner (ganyan ang family namin sa victory ka close..hehe). So yun pumunta kami Rockwell for Sarah's work. (Ate Ruth, Wilmer, Ate Alin, Jael, Rhyme, Andrew,Omar, Sarah, Rosan, Cyrus and ako!) Yay! nalula ako sa sale ng rustans! hehe. thank God, i left my credit card at home.hehe...ikot ikot and picture picture dun then dinner na daw. Sa Dulcinea kami. And there unang surprise sa gabing eto, while waiting for the food. may biglang lumapit sa tabi kong waiter na may slice mg cake with a candle! at nagkakantahan na sila ng Happy Birthday!!! waaahh...nagulat ako at di ko talaga ito inasahan. syempre i made a wish and i blew my candle. That was my 2nd cake for my 24th Birthday! Then Sarah honored me and said a prayer for me. nakakatuwa talaga kasi bago tong mga taong to sa buhay ko eh. Hayyy. pero natigil yun kasi gutom na talaga kami and Ate Ruth and company had to go back sa Sale ng rustans to help Sarah. So yun dinner dinner and then sabi ni Ate Alin "Anj sa Malvar tayo after ah, kasi andun sina Peter.." syempre ako..Okay.hehe

So After Dinner, malapit na curfew ko at masakit na ulo ko, lam mo na maaga nagising etc, may sign na sa akin na gusto ko na umuwi...pero sabi ni ate ALin magpaalam ka na...hehe (clueless pa rin ako)...So yun diretso kami sa Starbucks Malate kasi andun daw yung iba pang ka church namin.Pero nauna pa pala kami...Then, bigla silang nagpasukan nakalinya pa(Geoff Tan Sy,Grace,Prince, Archie, etc etc)...si Lyrian may dalang Cake na red ribbon na Nakasindi ang candle. I was looking for Dean kasi kabday ko sya at lam ko bday nya icelebrate sa Malate. Ngunit wala sya...hehe...kaya ako, nagtanong na in my very clueless face and tone "AKIN BA YAN? (sabay turo sa cake) haha....and they were all singing na pala ng happy birthday! hahha. hayyy nako, nakakatouch talaga! waaaah...Then dumating pa yung iba, dis tym andito na yung kabday ko si dean, nagbatian kami...hehe and mga may bago pa ako nameet that night) and yun yung mga andun pa rin sa starbucks isa isa na nila akong binigyan ng honoring message etc...nakakaiyak na talaga! ahaha...successful si ate ruth...naiyak ako! haha.My Third cake for my 24th birthday!!! and saya...ang dami ko nawish all in all sa bicol pa lang..hehehe...=)

Happy talaga ko sa mga sinabi nila..nakakataba ng puso, sa katawan ko yung mga cake magpapataba (corny).haha. Alam ko kelan ko lang sila nameet at mga naging kaclose pero parang tagal ko na silang nakasama. at sobrang looking forward pa ako sa mga happy days with them. God indeed has a purpose sa lahat ng nagyayari sa life natin.at sa akin alam ko isa ito dun. May delays sa plans ko pero may iba pala kasing plan pa si God na ipasok as I go along. I would proudly say na being a Christian is the best thing that happened to me noong 23 years old ako...and now na 24 na ako, I'm really looking forward sa walk ko with Him...I know I will never be alone.  I have my family and i have this "New Family" pa who promised me tonight na they will stick with me sa jouney ko na to with God. hayyy I'm so happy. Thank you Ate ALin, thank you guys!!! Love ko kayo! (",)

This is the lyrics of a hit song by Baz Luhrmann.This actually reminds me of Leo DiCaprio's Beached. (ill post the song in  while).Listen to this first thing in the morning or upon waking up if you wake up at 3 in the afternoon like me..hehehe (hey, because i go to bed at 8am). Read every line and you'll see why i love this.=)

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’97
Wear sunscreen
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering
experience…I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine.

Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours.

Floss

Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever
own..

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

(Brother and sister together we'll make it through
Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you've been hurting, and I know I've been waiting to be there
for you. And I'll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can.
Everybody's free.)

Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
good.

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

(Brother and sister together we'll make it through
Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you've been hurting, and I know I've been waiting to be there
for you. And I'll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can.
Everybody's free.)

Crucified

Laid behind a stone

Lived to die

Rejected and alone

Like a rose

Trampled on the ground

You took the fall

And thought of me

Above all

Since I started  Victory Christian Fellowship and then now while I'm preparing for my victory weekend this coming Saturday, i have come to realize so many things...Since I'm sick today and I'm just home, left with nothing to do but bond with princess (my laptop)  let me write here some of my thoughts.

At first I can't explain why i feel this excited regarding that event, and then now i believe that it is simply because i will finally have my freedom. Freedom from the past and all the things that prevented me to have a really good relationship with God. All my life I've been feeling like some people are so fond of breaking my heart (not just lovelife stuffs okay ...family, friends, just people around me and sad to say the people that i sometimes care for the most) and now it suddenly hit me. I wasn't the only one who's hurt and in pain. He was with me and  yes, i would admit that for so many times I was breaking His heart too, over and over again.

I set my standards on how I should live my life. World Standard. In the end, I always fail. So now, I have finally chosen the best standard of all...the Perfect Change...the standard which is according to His word and His will...(hay Lord, ang tagal mo toh hinintay)

I'm not saying that it's gonna be easy or life will be perfect along the way...All I know is that right now I have my support group around and if things go wrong , at least by then I'm already solid and strong.

perfectness ayt!? hehe

My Last Song Syndrome. 

Naked and Sacred by Maria Nyler.

when I'm with you
i feel naked and sacred
and this world can be so cold
i wanna hold u naked and sacred
till i grow old

wat does love need
can love last
i ask myslef these questions
haunted by the past
i walk these city streets
i've known the vitories and defeat
searching hoping just barely coping
baby i wanna be good for you
i wanna be true
don't know how to live with myself
if i ever hurt you

when I'm with you
i feel naked and sacred
and this world can be so cold
i wanna hold you naked
and sacred till i grow old

since i met u
my life has changed
i feel like a bird
thats been let out of its cage
baby i wanna be good for you
i wanna be true
don't know how to live with myself
if i ever hurt u

when I'm with you i feel naked and sacred
and this world can be so cold
i wanna hold you naked
and sacred till i grow old

naked and sacred
naked and...

your hands heal me(healing me)
your love feel me(feeling me)
when you go away(go away)
your heart is still in me

naked and sacred
and this world can be so cold
i wanna hold you naked
and sacred till i grow old

when I'm with you
i feel naked and sacred
and this world can be so cold
i wanna hold you naked
and sacred till i grow old

i loved the movie MARLEY and ME so much that i feel so inspired to write something here tonight...

i feel bad that i did not watch this movie when it was still in the theatres but thankful too in a way, cause at least i did not walk around the mall again with this red eyes, and sticky face still fresh from my bucket of tears.i was crying since John saw Marley under the tree very weak until the end of the film. imagine that. hehe. when was the last time i cried this way? i cant even remember. haha.

i did not make a review of that movie here in multiply because a 5 star is not enough at all.hehe. Marley was so cute and the life of the characters were so light, happy and inspiring. First of all, I can't believe Miss Aniston didn't want to have kids in her marriage with Mr Pitt, she was such a great Mom in the movie (is she that good as an actress) hehe. That movie actually made me realize that no matter how crazy i am with my career, if time will come and i will face a situation like Jen in the movie, then i would do the same. Definitely.

John played by Owen Wilson is such a great man, good friend,a great husband and a cool dad. I hope there are still guys like him around...and i hope we'll find each other soon. wehehe.Come on! we can get marry and get a dog and then we'll start a family....where art thou?

Hayy i love that movie. I wanna thank Anne for inspiring me to watch it.uyyy you miss Yumi and isda.

 Me,i suddenly remember three special babies in my life:

1) my cat "Puti" who died on christmas day when i was in elementary, and for how many days i was so sad, i didn't want to talk about the incident. As in denial galore.hehehe...i never had another cat after that, even though we used to have more than 5 cats at home. No one can ever replace her. She was as white as snow, with eyes Blue and Green and her nose was super pink and she wore different necklaces everyday (were actually my bracelets). hehe

2) my doggie "Abog". He looked like Marley but "askal" lang talaga siya.hehe. He died in front of me when a jeepney ran over him. Because he crossed the street while chasing me when i was about to go to school. Hay i didn't recite the whole day at school then and i did not talk to anyone too. Not even my teacher. I was in Grade Two then.And when I went home and heard that our "mang iinom" neighbors ate him...i was so mad. I did not play with their kids anymore. i was so angry with them.haha

3) my baby "ArL". come on who doesn't know Arl??? then ur not my friend! hehe. Arl is the love of my life and i still miss him everyday...curious? check an album here in my multiply of photos and you'll see my baby ArL. huhu... i miss my baby kingkong. haha....adik.

Kayo? may bagay or hayop or whatever ba sa buhay nyo na minsan mas matindi pa ang impact na dinudulot sainyo kesa ibang tao sa paligid mo?